I'm Really a Wimp

So, I've had friends now who've told me that they wish they could see some weakness in me -- particularly on my blog where all looks rosy and perfect. My biggest goal for by blog, aside from just being a sort of scrapbook for grandparents and friends afar to keep up with our daily activities, is to hopefully be an encouragement for others who live as moms (and especially homeschool moms) seeking to make home a place of beauty and contentment and peace.
This morning I had a notion though, to write about one of my biggest weaknesses --- namely, I'm a wimp. The past two weeks I've had trouble sleeping again -- nothing new here. Whenever I'm stressed or hormonal (usually both), I have trouble sleeping. When I have trouble sleeping, I become anxious and so on and so forth. It is a vicious cycle that I'm ashamed to admit, but so it goes. The wimpy part comes in the fact that this tends to happen just because life gets out of its normal routine for me. I'm fine as long as the biggest decision I have to make in life is whether or not to teach my daughter how to use the bread machine today or next Thursday; or if I should plant the peas next to the tomatoes or keep them by the corn! But when you factor in overnight company or planning a birthday party or organizing a class -- then my body and mind seem to go into a tailspin. It's pathetic. Truly. I'm a wimp. What can I say? As much as I think I am NOT fretting, deep inside I must be because I eventually see the side-effects and then have to pray and rest my way out of them again (which can take months).
So there you go -- now you know that it's easier for me to keep focused on the easier, rosier, happier, less-thought-provoking side of life. Anything more -- and I'm a wimp.